Tuesday, January 03, 2006
The theme for January is Personal History. If you click on the title to this post you can read about it in more detail. This photo was taken tonight. I got out a box of old photos while Tootie was getting dressed for bed. She picked this one up and started running around the house. I grabbed my camera and chased her. I took about 30 dud photos but was happy with this one. It describes much.
She is my daughter. A daughter a pined for and dreamed about for almost 13 years. This photo she happened to grab is one we used in our adoption dossier. It was taken a little over 3 years ago at my parents house. My grandmother in whom Tootie is named after is also in the photo. She passed away a year ago this month. She was 92? I think. I remember her being so excited for us. Well, about as excited one can get being a stoic German but excited none the less. She herself went childless for 11 years. The exact amount of time I did. Odd. When I said goodbye to her on this visit she told me she may not see me again. I reminded her that she needed to meet her future great granddaughter. She immediately perked up and said "Yes. Yes I do. I want to see that baby of yours." And she did.
Little did I know at that time what my daughter would be like and how my life would change. It's nothing that I imagined it to be and everything at the same time. The me in that photo was exactly that. Me. All me. It was all about what *I* wanted. What *I* imagined *my* child to be. Thank God she is who He created her to be and she couldn't be any more perfect. A loving, jumping, giggling, smartypants of a girl.